Me...Take It or Leave It

I've...
stayed out too late and gotten up too early, done things I'm not proud of, thought I was in love, been lazy, made big mistakes, cared what others think, cried myself to sleep, partied too hard, wasted opportunities, seen things I wouldn't wish on anyone, overreacted, laid friends to rest, been so jealous its made me sick, lied, learned you can't change people who don't want to change, been depressed, got mad over stupid things, worried too much, been so scared I peed my pants, procrastinated, been ashamed, taken people for granted, gotten in trouble, never done drugs, realized you can't change the past, made bad decisions, hurt people's feelings, had my feelings hurt, broke hearts and had mine broken, made my parents proud, done things people can only dream about, stopped to take pictures, gained friends and lost ones I was very close to, fallen madly in love, married my best friend.





I've been kicked down and been on top of the world.

Move On and Shut Up

While sitting at my computer and looking at facebook and other social networking sites, I see peoples views about the past. I wonder if all you can talk about is the past, then why did you leave it, why did you change the way things were? I had a boyfriend/fiance for 5 years and I don't talk to him nor do I talk to anyone in his family. When we broke up that was it, we haven't spoke since. I left him in the past. I just can't understand how people can be so hung up on the past, clinging to every memory they had. Sure I have plenty of memories from my childhood and high school, but they don't include my ex. I've moved on in my life, got married and I'm making new memories with Grant. I don't sit around and think about things that happened with my ex. I do miss some of the friends and (his) family I lost when we went our separate ways, but I knew that was a loss I was going to endure. We (past friends and family) were around eachother almost everyday so we all became very close, so I can't understand how people who barely saw eachother can still, especially againts others wishes, keep in contact....loneliness is the only thing I can think of.
If all you think about is the past, how can you move on?

"Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Love this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed." -Wayne Dyer

Smitten With The Mitten

Grant and I made our way back to Michigan for our third and final wedding reception. On the way I got very well reacquainted with my old friend Concerta, which helped me make it through the night driving. Leaving at 7 P.M. was not a very wise choice but its what we had to do to get there in time for our reception. I saw the biggest bucks of my life on the east side of Wyoming, which would all scare the dickens out of me when I saw them. My co-pilot wasn't really much help, seeing how he slept almost the whole way. Twenty-two hours later, we made it home on Friday at 9 P.M. to find everyone else returning to the house at the same time. Grant and my parents had been "bonding" all day. After catching up and the parents spliting a big a bottle of wine which caused even more bonding. Since I drove the whole way I was exhausted and ready to go to bed, but we still had someone missing. We waited up until 11 and then Grant's friend, Chris, finally made it to my parents house. We finally went to bed after 36 hours of being awake. The next morning we awoke to find a heap of tasks that had to be done before the party. Then before we knew it, the party was in full swing. Seeing people I hadn't seen since my graduation party, reconnecting with friends and having so much of my family was amazing. Ten of my first cousins made it, and we counted that that 9 more couldn't make it, I love having a big family. After too much food, cake, and numerous times getting asked when we're going to have babies, the party was finally over. The rest of the trip went by too fast and we spent a majority of it catching up on sleep and hanging out with my wonderful friends and family.